New Country, New Moon, New Me: Why I’m Creating With Reckless Honesty
A Full Moon. A Fresh Start. A Whole New Me.
I can’t believe I’m writing this from the UK (!!). If you've been following me across the pond—thank you. Truly. Today, I want to share something more personal than ever. Buckle in, because this one’s going to get real.
TLDR:
I’m going all in on my art.
I’m releasing new original paintings every full moon (next drop: August 9).
My collage prints are on pause but will be coming back soon!
Why I’m Changing Everything
Okay, back to the juicy stuff…
I've made a huge personal decision since arriving here: I am not trying to look any certain way anymore, and I am comitting fully to my art. I have had a lot of time to think the last few weeks since arriving and as I decompress in my new home, I've been unraveling a lot of thoughts (some true, some lies) that I've had about myself, about what success means to me, about what's important to me.
The last couple of years in the US has been about survival mode, about pivoting, about making it work, doing whatever I need to do to do my part for my little family. A thing you may or may not know about me is, whatever I do, I am all in. 100%. Seriously…one time I spent 36 hours at the Jewelry Store I was managing without sleeping or going home because it was inventory.
e4 But, I also have ADHD, so the thing is that I'm usually doing a LOT of different things. I keep coming back to this idea that I struggle with being consistent.
There are a few things though, that I am always consistent in: Loving art. Loving making art. Loving my people. Loving puppies. Loving Nature. Loving making meaning and telling stories. And squeezing every last drop of living that this life has to offer.
The Moment That Changed Me (But Not Right Away)
You may not know this, but a few years ago, I got horribly, horribly sick. I didn't have covid, but I had another virus (they didn't even know what it was…). It's not really fair to call what I experienced an NDE (near death experience) but to me, I perceived it that way when it was happening. I went to urgent care, and after being immediately admitted, the Nurse Practitioner mentioned she was concerned I might have a pulmonary embolism. I went into a panic attack, ended up in an ambulance because of the suspected pulmonary embolism, and the next thing I could even remember was the ambulence tech telling the incoming nurse that I was having an anxiety attack and then being left in a hospital room alone.
I was so scared they didn't tell anyone that I was going to die of a pulmonary embolism! (They did. I was SO sick…I just missed it…like, in and out of conciousness. sick.) They wouldn't let Kohlton in because of Covid restrictions.
So I was just there in this tiny room. By myself. Thinking I was going to die. As I was laying there, I was thinking about how I missed my family and I wish they were there with me. And about regrets that I should have. But I didn't have any regrets.
I just kept thinking: I have so much more art that I need to bring into the world. I can't be done here yet.
I'm Not Hiding Anymore
Well, it turns out that I wasn't going to die. I didn't have a pulmonary embolism at all--the hospital just was extremely understaffed, I was crazy out of it and didn't have an advocate in the room with me (because of the aforementioned COVID restrictions) and nobody communicated to me that even though I was sick, dehydrated and my heart rate was up, I was fine.
Late that night, Kohlton took me home, and then I went back to my life. And I didn't really come back that changed. Until now. I'm ready to bring all my art into the world. I'm ready for you to see it. I'm ready to fully and authentically tell my story and connect with you on a deeper level. I'm done being scared. I have left so much of my life behind in the states and moved to another country for crying out loud!
So, if you're still here, still reading this. Thank you. Thank you for your support and for rooting me on. And I cannot wait to show you what's coming, and what it means to me--no more hiding behind abstract patterns and the idea that “art means whatever you, the viewer, wants it to mean.” Nope. This is a collaboration babe. I'm telling you where it came from. I"m telling you the story. And you can tell me what that means to you. So. with that, I have new art being released to my website every month on the full moon. I will be shipping it worldwide, and that's that.
Mark your calendar for April 9--the Sturgeon Full Moon in Aquarius.
And until then I'll tell you a few stories and share some work in progress photos. How does that sound?
What You Can Expect
✨ A new collection of original paintings, every full moon.
✨ Worldwide shipping.
✨ Process photos and behind-the-scenes stories in between.
✨ Prints will return soon—stay tuned.
👉 Next release: April 9 – the Sturgeon Full Moon in Aquarius.
If that sounds messy, raw, and honest… that’s because it will be.
And I hope it gives you a little permission to be 1000% yourself too.
Final Thoughts
I think this iteration of me is going to be pretty messy…definitely less put together. But she is going to be very honest, very open and painting a lot more. Thank you so much for your support. I hope you love what is coming. But if not, that's okay too. <3 I hope, no matter what, that you consider it a permission slip to be 100000% yourself, and leave it to everyone else to think what they want about that. Because that is exactly what I'm going to do.
Whether you collect my work, read these stories, or just quietly root me on from afar—thank you. Your support means the world. I’m endlessly grateful and so freaking excited to share what’s next.
Until then, go make something messy. Something true.
And remember: the moon is a great time to begin again.
With love,
Andi